I'm Back.

I never knew how fast my life could change in 21 days. I never knew how much God could move in my life and show me His might, infinite love, and grace in just 21 days. The past 3 weeks beginning January 6^th and ending January 27^th were life changing for me in many ways. I had strayed away from the Lord. I knew He loved me and I felt like that was enough, but it absolutely wasn’t. I learned quickly during my fast that I can never “do enough” for my God, just having a casual relationship with Him wasn’t growing me at all. A relationship is when two people are constantly investing in each other’s lives and communicating daily- I definitely had neglected those two things with Christ. I hadn’t been chasing after Him with all of my being, talking to Him constantly and searching His Word daily for knowledge and spiritual growth. I was spiritually and emotionally dying little by little without those constants in my life. On the second night of the fast I began to breakdown. “Why God, why can I not trust and believe what You say is true about me in Your Word?” I’ve struggled so long with insecurity and self confidence, but that night it hit hard. I knew what the bible said about how the Lord views His children, but for some reason I just couldn’t allow myself to believe it. I prayed so hard for the next few days for the Lord to show me in any way that He was in control of my life and that He had His hand over me. The most amazing thing to me about Jesus is that when you pray He WILL listen and answer you at the perfect moment and in an unexpected way! Small opportunities kept arising for me to use the talents He blessed me with to invest in the lives of others rather than focusing on myself. Through those events I was able to see that I had purpose- I was placed on this earth to love on others and glorify the Lord in every move I make and every decision I make. I can’t explain the refreshing peace that fell over me when the Lord showed me that I was important and loved. Having a relationship with God is a choice. We can choose to take time out of our day to grow in our walk with Christ and in turn receive His blessings or we can put Him on the back burner and struggle our way through life’s “what if’s” and everyday trials. I’ll let you in on a little secret from firsthand experience- trying to tackle the weight of this world by yourself will NEVER be possible. We need Christ to guide our lives. We need Christ to reassure us daily of how precious we are and how mighty and gracious He is. If you feel like you’re too far from God to even consider running back to Him I want to assure you- He is patiently waiting. You can never outrun Him or scare Him off by all the mistakes you think are unforgiveable. Saying that this 21 day fast has changed my life for the better is an understatement and it goes to show that one decision can change everything! I challenge ya’ll whether it be a couple days, week, or month to surround yourself with the things of the Lord and see how much easier it becomes to make it a daily habit. He promises His children that they will be blessed for being faithful. What a great comfort!